Post 4

Great trip to London met Sandra and Trevor really good to meet such positive people who are happy to help improve the lives of others.

Had a session with Trevor went way back in the past felt like a huge weight lifted afterwards I am looking forward to the future, whilst this is only the middle of the 1st week working shifts is not making a routine easy, I know I'm being hard on myself and nothing good in life is easy but I am scared of letting people and myself down.

I have to realize that it will take time to work round  my shifts but every time I eat it feels like I'm losing the battle which I'm not as I am clearly eating less and better quality food than before, I will not let this beat me I have to change my ways and lose weight to be in better health for the future. I have Sandra and Trevor to help keep me on track they are my rock and I will not let them down.

http://www.ThinkingSlimmer.com

Post 3

Looking forward to Friday travelling to London will blog more on this later, but suffice to say this will be the new start that I asked for when I broke my story. Hopefully this will be one of the few good things to happen since. I will still be fighting for people in the same position to get the help and treatment they want / need.

Its time the government and the NHS and PCT's all got their heads out of the sand and looked to tackle obesity the correct way and look at all the options available to keep the costs down and reinvest savings in to other areas of the NHS.One size does not fit all so get your acts together sit down and sort this out now. 

Then there is the food company's that supply all the food that is bad for us and the government will do nothing about this because money talks. And don't forget the likes of macdonald's burger king etc.Then the sweet company's who made extra large sweets and chocolate bars.

THIS NEEDS LOOKING INTO AS A MATTER OF URGENCY.

Post 2

Feeling very low this week, magazine article come out on Tuesday worse than I thought and I thought it would not be good from the start.Only agreed to do it with my other half due to the car braking down and not being cheap to fix. I've had 2 TV offers but both fell through I so need to get the facts out and away from this 20st lazy fat b*****d headline. Feel as through my other half getting rough end of stick but I am really struggling with my emotions and I don't have any answers yet.

Went to weight management this week saw a friend not seen for a few years and he is not good, smoking caught up with him,(please don't judge him) what a shock did not recognize him straight away it was his voice that I recognized hope he can get the help he needs and life gets better for him. We are all humans and no one especially friends should not suffer like that.

On the subject of weight management having been told to do this by my PCT and having to jump through their hoops I am beginning to think that this type of group help is not for me. I may be selfish still but I think one to one might be better. PCT's motto seems to be one size fits all and no flexibility is allowed,I will keep challenging them so that people get the best treatment for them according to the level of there illness.  

20 Stone Fat Man Headlines

Wow what a shock this last week has been, having released a story about myself to the local paper it gets picked up by the dailies who make up bits as they go along. Then the message board abuse begins even more vile and uneducated rubbish than I thought.

Then the phone rings non stop for two days as radio and television show an interest, at last I can speak and explain a little better about my situation starts off with local BBC Radio Solent which went ok then channel 5 spends 2 hours recording and getting the facts and figures correct(many thanks Cathy) then radio five live with Victoria Derbyshire they also had Dr Jones and I gave him a run for his money that was very scary as it was live, then Sky News for live chat with Colin Brazier.

After all that still many calls from Television shows which most fall through but they run story and talk about me just on the newspaper stories. Very disappointed that they did not wish to talk to me but there you go. Decide to do a magazine with my other half, first time that money was a reason for doing story as they would not run story with me on my own will see how that turns out next week.

Looks like I have an option opening up looking forward to it more each day just hope I am strong enough t make it work. Will update on that later.

Well there goes my first ever blog lets hope there's more.